Sunday, July 3, 2016
Trials Are For Reason
A year ago, I had the biggest trial in my life come upon me. After serving 3 months in the mission field things began to change. My thoughts became negative. My attitude became bleak. I felt trapped in a darkness I could not escape. Doubt, fear, anxiety, guilt all these feelings began weighing down upon me. I felt hopeless and lost. I thought God had abandoned me and I would never received peace in my life. Many times I wanted to quit and go home. Many times I lay on the floor saying "Why me God? Why Me? " I was angry, upset and afraid. After much prayer I finally found out what was wrong. I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and ocd. I began counseling and started a path I am truly grateful for. I had to endure 8 months of pain but I am so grateful full I did. Because of this trial, I have a better understanding of Jesus Christ. I can relate to others now and I have a founder appreciation for prayer and fasting. I know it may sound crazy, but we need to be greatful for our trials. As we allow God to shape us and mold us, we will become better and stronger. Even though I still struggle with the feelings of depression and am learning how to still have the spirit with me even with the negative feelings, It's difficult but I know that with God all things are possible. This video helps explain what I and many others go through. Please watch and feel the hope of this message. If you struggle with this or know anyone who is, I invite you to share this with them!